Beloved Flower Lover,
When we realise that we have been hurting ourselves because of of new knowledge we may want to be upset with ourselves.
Step number one then is to make it a ritual to forgive yourself.
Would you have knowingly hurt yourself ? Ask that question. Keeping asking that question. Notice your answer.
Do this for as long as you need. 7 days, 21 days, 30 days, 40 days . Before you go to bed and first thing as your rise.
Notice how you free up your identity to bud, bloom and flourish.