Beloved Flower Lover,
She stood looking out of the bedroom window staring at Calla Lillies. Her father had planted them and each year they just got bigger.She never ever thought to cut them and bring them into the house even though she would buy roses to put into vases.
Not the easiest month. No way. She had all the usual suspects going on, health, finances, romance,parenting, community issues. Her father had just died. Her mother had died three years prior.She had the family house now, yet she also had any and every issues you can imagine. She either had had it or was going through it now.
Yet she had been learning that she had inner abilities to make her life bloom. She had been learning about her divine self image and knew she had to use her imagination for something else,other than worry. So she turned to flowers becaused she recognised that they made her smile. An alternative companion.
Yes a great recovery resource but she was switching and twitching.No one was home,her husband was always on the computer, smoking ciggies or drinking.The children were grown and practically out. She tried to call a few friends after seing them on instagram, whatsapp and facebook but they were all busy. She tried to listen to her favourite radio shows, but got bored. She tried to clean the clutter in the kitchen. That stopped after one second! Instead she breathed,smiled, looked at her dad’s photo and felt her energy rise. She realised she was terrified that she would become like him. Moany, no money and diabetic.
She had stirred herself and decided to find 5 reasons for meet her inner exploration of peace and her joy instead of her self condemnation, guilt,anger, sadness, fear, and worry.She decided it was time to face her morose despair. She had nothing to loose.
She got a pink sheet of paper and began to write 5 reasons to use flowers to experince peace and joy.
1.Flowers can make you smile beautifully
2.A beautiful smile can remind you of a joyful playful time
3. That smile is energy, and energy is the potential to do something
4. A smile directs that energy towards a goal,an objectivive, a target, that potential to do something, the ability to accomplish something was in her smile.
5. That joyful,playful smile can dissolve any negative image that she had of herself a she touched her heart and imagined herself.
“it’s time” she said,”for a fun that is really joy, not dependent on externals”.She had been saddened by her husband saying he had no time for her that day.
“for peace, not based on avoiding challenges”, but knowing that she can dip into that picture of herself whenever she had a romantic challenge.She realised that she had to stop babying him,the children, even her friends and focus totally on her own self. On being brave enough to just feel her good reasons for living and really feel how beautiful she felt when he thought of all the reaon for being alive. She was free to do this.
She knew she was scared that she would close her heart like her father, who had great dreams, but once he got ill felt that life had done him a great disservice.
She went back to an idea she was mulling over in her heart. The idea for oneness. Or in other words, knowing that nothing was against her. Or instead she imagined how the challenge was for her, rather than against her.
She breathed touched her heart looking at those Calla Lillies and decided to bring them inside.”That could be the power of flowers-the lesson of an open hearted with more space for more love, not less”
Her husband was still smoking ciggies and coughing in the mornings, her children out-possibly smoking pot, her friends on social media- gossiping, her parents were still both dead, but she had grown in confidence about the unknown.She was free to imagine herself as she really was.
The London Flower Lover