Beloved Flower Lover,
She had been through the unthinkable and was open to the impossible. She realised that all those things actually had supported her to head into the right direction. And though vibrationally she had stopped grieving her old wounds. She knew it was ok to be a bit indecisve because it gave her the space to consult rather always have the answers. She was changing.
This year she was about to be the big age. You know the one,20,30,40,50,60,70,80,90,100. She had been able to use being stopped in her tracks and rethink.
It was November and she already felt the influence of next year already. An entirely different year.
she was ready to begin to tell new stories now that talked about how she pulled herself into a new place. How she had used the energies of comfort and softness to heal a grieving heart. Completion.
Some one had told her to begin to privately use flowers to actively make the difference. So rather than use her intellect she was being asked to focus on the energy of her character.She needed a good long rest and a bath. Downtime. She focused on the energy of beauty, life and death of flowers as difficult things showed up in her life and created transformations. Flowers had helped her to get ready for the next right action. She had expanded deliciously, feeling the energy moving. Yet gratitude for being better than what she used to be was there. Tonight it was about her nesting down for the evening, ready to take her enneagram personality test.
What a coincidence.
Her friend had called her and suggested that she could begin to get ready for next year right now. That she could use the time now, right up until the end of the 40 day winter solstice season, ending January 6th,to review where she was at now and prepare to be re born for the new year. She could see her number on the enneagram, and saw its value. http://www.enneagraminstitute.com/Tests_Battery.asp#.UpjojdL8Hkd. She remembered she was energy and that her life was responding to the vibration she was putting out. So it was time to clear up that old energy and replace it with what she wanted right now,
She began to talk about her habits of griefs.
her loss of not being married
not having a child
her not having the fight she wanted with her close friend
not having a house
not having resolved her debt
not having a career
not having her book written yet
not having sewn the outfits she drew in her style book
not having her business
not having…..having loss
Gaining peace . Her friend called again. The conversation took as long as it did.
What a lovely friendship. They laughed as they both completed the free tests.
As she looked at the print out from the enneagram test she rediscovered who she was.
The Helper (the Two)
Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people’s needs.
How to Get Along with Me
- Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
- Share fun times with me.
- Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
- Let me know that I am important and special to you.
- Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.
In Intimate Relationships
- Reassure me that I am intersting to you.
- Reassure me often that you love me.
- Tell me I’m attractive and that you’re glad to be seen with me.
What I Like About Being a Two
- being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
- knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
- being generous, caring, and warm
- being sensitive to and perceptive about others’ feelings
- being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor
What’s Hard About Being a Two
- not being able to say no
- having low self-esteem
- feeling drained from overdoing for others
- not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
- criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
- being upset that others don’t tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
- working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings
Twos as Children Often
- are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
- try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
- are outwardly compliant
- are popular or try to be popular with other children
- act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
- are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Twos)
Twos as Parents
- are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren’t)
- are often playful with their children
- wonder: “Am I doing it right?” “Am I giving enough?” “Have I caused irreparable damage?”
- can become fiercely protective
nothing was off limits. she realised she had been depending on others to be a certain way before she would allow herself to have a certain level of happiness. She had been expanded and extended. Stretched because she could no longer get rid of worry about her losses.
She realised that her hardships helped shape who she is today. She understood thats why we’re all called to a special life task—and how to surrender to that purpose was the gift of her challenges.
No longer impatient. She looked at the beauty of the wilting and dying flowers in her hallway and she continued to read the print out about Personality Type Two: The Helper
The Caring, Nurturing Type
I now release…
- all feelings of rage and resentment toward others.
- all attempts to justify my aggressive feelings.
- all attachment to feeling victimized and abused.
- the fear that I am unwanted and unloved.
- all attempts to force others to love me.
- making others feel guilty for not responding sufficiently to my needs.
- abusing food and medications to make up for my loneliness.
- feeling that others owe me for the things I have chosen to do for them.
- believing that no one willingly takes care of me.
- expecting others to repay my help in the way I want.
- all physical ailments, aches, and complaints.
- calling attention to what I have done for others.
- feeling possessive of loved ones.
- doing things for others to make myself needed.
- flattering others to make them feel good about me.
- not wanting to acknowledge my negative feelings.
I now affirm…
- that I own all of my feelings without fear.
- that I am clear and conscious of my motives.
- that I am lovable for who I am.
- that my happiness does not depend on pleasing others.
- that I can let go of loved ones.
- that I nurture my own growth and development.
- that I love others without expecting anything in return.
- the joy and warmth that fills my heart.
- my gratitude for all that others have given me.
Her inner desires were being recognised. Comfortable, cosy, she became curious about what she might do for with all of this during the coming year.She caught herself smiling just before she went into her deep winter solstice sleep.
The London Flower Lover
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