Beloved Flower Lover,
After talking in the team it was decided to share with you what could be considered controversial. Even scary.
Well because we always have a smile and always ready to help to talk about tears may not suit TheLondonflowerlover ‘image’. The image of peace may be shattered.
Yet we decided to share anyway. This and the next few Winter Solstice preparation posts will explain why.
We are in the arena of sharing wholehearted love and offer our gift of flowers in the process. Giving and receiving. We are in the bright and breezy business and are known for that. We are not in the let’s make you ‘uncomfortable’ business.
Yet sometimes when we do everything right, doing it all and never letting anyone see us sweat and nothing goes right.Mostly we let go of any wrestling within, any inner fight but we also do forget to feel the peace and feel the pain instead. A pain that leaves us unable to experience peace. If only temporarily, because we forgot our nature.
Well a month ago we got angry and it showed. Underneath that anger was fear. And it left us immobile. Then with our faces smarting with shame for having this anger publically wash over, like multiple tidal waves we felt the shame again. “Never good enough” or “who do you think you are” where the inner and external dialogue in the studio. We just had it. We kicked off and fell into a vulnerable heap.
Worsened by not getting the affectionate hugs expected from close one’s we felt ‘hysterical’ hurt again.
Yet it’s been the many friends from all around the world who stand by us in our struggle. It’s those who have helped us to come back to a sense of peace and find our way back to our heart. Back to each other. We thank you.
Wrestling and fighting about whether we are being perfect and bullet proof has not worked. Vulnerability and compassion have become our path. What we learnt this last two months is that going to face your challenges means facing shame and embracing vulnerability without wrestling with it. Yes shame and embracing vulnerability instead of running from it. Being willing to embrace both from a place of peace. That place that in stillness can embrace it all. No fight. Even if things on the outside do not seem to yield to your best efforts. Especially then.
During this journey we came across a courageous ‘breakdown babe’ called Brene Brown. A darling sister, she speaks most compellingly about how ‘we’ all benefit from embracing our vulnerability as we experience emotional breakdowns.
So where are we now? In a different place. A very specific place of re-contemplation of peace as we invite you to share with us. After watching this short video you may like to consider bringing in beauty into your solstice time. Flowers of course are our gift, our focal point guiding us back into the deepest ocean of tranquil rejuvenation. You choose what to be your guide.
If you love and respect yourself as a ‘breakdown babe’ or support, encourage and admire ‘breakdown babes’, let us know in anyway you like. Whatever you do, these flowers are for you.
Peace is our nature.
The London Flower lover